funk

this morning rocked. i had a new-to-me desk to arrange, an office to put back together, a long and productive day stretched ahead of me...

this afternoon is very different. nothing goes well, and every little thing gets under my skin. what's going on, you ask?

there are two different areas in my life right now that are vying for the "this is the third time we've done this, folks, do you think we can avoid the annual cluster fuck?" award. There have been dozens of emails sent back and forth, and yet -- strangely -- no actual communication or resolving of issues has taken place.

some, though not all, of these people are in technical communication and rhetoric. you'd think they could match their job descriptions, yes? they are experts, yes? Bwa ha.

and i think overall, the thing that's screwing this day is lack of effective communication and people making chnages that are either unnecessarily complicated or that generally mess up a good thing. i'm usually fairly easy to please. but if something works, for the love of God, leave it alone!

to avoid further escalation of ire, i'm just going to take a long walk out in the heat. i'll come back in an hour, take a second shower, and hopefully not feel like strangling people.

grr.
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Added: also, i suppose if i'm feeling particularly honest, i'll add that i'm still dealing with some residual bitterness over an opportunity i let pass. and i'm feeling spiteful toward a couple of people who have nothing to do with the above mentioned double cluster fuck. probably irritation over the first issues brought the other ones up to the surface. and so a long walk might turn into a long walk ending with the throwing of old bread to ducks. whatever it is, i need to just stop.