"hope" or "light at the end"

meeting went well. lots of coping mechanisms running around my mind. reaffirmation of my sanity.

and let's just say that, in the end, i can surround myself with an airtight plastic bag and twisty tie to avoid the mold contaminating the rest of the bread loaves in this barrel.

am determined not to come out of this experienced scarred and bitter. i went through two years of a similarly poisonous environment earlier and suffered for it in the end. not this time. i will not let it get me. i have options, and i'm using them.

i did try to engage. i tried to show them how things could be done. i really did put in the effort. i can still help my students and i can still improve my own work. so that's where my effort will go. as for my peers, well, it's just one of those times when you can't hope to help/change/improve others, and so shake off the dust and all that. it isn't worth the downward spiral.

self-protection is not selfish.

love and peace (and a dose of distance, as has worked in the past)